Mama : Setahun Masihi || Mama : After A Year

Exactly A year according to Gregorian Calender.She left us forever.

October 28th 2014

I still remember during my diploma study,I called her to say how worried I am with my Calculus exam and afraid that I end up getting C-.Next,all I know that she arrived in front of my hostel.The journey took her almost 45 minutes along with my Nanny cum my neighbour.I was speechless.A conversation turn to be an adhoc visit for me.

She tag along my niece,who is staying with her at that time.And also some food.When I recall back that incident,I was hoping that my nightmare hasn't begun yet.Well,to loose your parents is the worst things to happen.Regardless of what your age are.

Its been a year Mama,and next will be 12 years for Papa.Gosh,I didn't know that times flies that quick.

The Love of my Life

Dear Mama & Papa,

If you know the struggle I face,I bet you wouldn't dare to leave me.

Life is so different when you are still around.

Laughter is so real with you guys next to me.

Crying was something that I never used to do.

Sharing is the most I would do with you.

& Talking is the must whenever we met.

Now,

Bit by bits of my life scattered to pieces.

I am afraid of my own future.

I am stuck with my memory.

Memory that you left which hurts me a lot.

To walk away from that memory is impossible.

Soon,

I am counting days to see you again.

May Allah grant us a place to reunite together.

I am not asking for any sympathy.It just my life a bit upside down,and I can't  find the spirit to boost it out.

Sarah

October 28th 2015

MEDAN: 2013

The last trip with Mama.

It was requested by Mama to visit Medan and I thought of going with her and Ateh.And that is how the trip begins.

I am supposed to flew from Subang to Penang on Friday Nov29th , however I missed the flight.

Silly me.Luckily , I have an amazing friend who is willingly to send me from Skypark Subang to Bus Station Shah Alam after my lost.I owe you a lot NN and husband.

Below is the flight details for three of us.Flight was reschedule from Medan. What a waste since we have to left early than expected.

I choose Fireflyz because of the free luggage of 20kg , complimentary drinks and food,as well as free wheelchair service (during that time).As to date Fireflyz impose RM30 + 6% GST for those who wants to use the wheelchair service.We boarded the flight earlier and get off later than everyone else.

Our tentative are quit simple actually.I enjoy the trip except that when I parted from my mom's since she wanted to do shopping while I'm not.That is the beginning of the issue. jeng.jeng.jeng.

The parted scene happen during the third day.We stop by at the Pasar Buah Berastagi.As usual ,Mama wants to do her shopping while I am more interesting in walking. I left mama with +caks pong ,Ayu and Atoi. I just walk and suddenly followed by Hendrik ( Ayu's bf at that time) . We cross by primary school and Batak Museum.Only Allah knows how much I love Museum.I begin to grew liking to Museum since forever.Of course my Mama pissed off with my attitude.All of these were revealed after the trip.I am more towards the walking person rather than shopping while walking.Sometimes , I have to turn back and look for them.And now,my sister +caks pong inherit this trait. Lulz.

Oh yeah,another thing happen.I did a short trekking to Air Terjun Sipiso-Piso.Oh Man,it was hilarious,since I was wearing long skirt at that time.Crazy me.The journey was great and my flats was totally flat soon thereafter.As usual,Mama would her story how she climbed Penang Hill during her youth.Enough said,below is the synopsis picture of our trip.Enjoy!!

Summary of the trip of the trio.

Masjid Raya,Istana Maimon,Danau Toba,Medan Museum.Warung Pak Pos.

Me,Ayu & Atoi at Batak Museum.

I did enjoy the trip.Berastagi is awesome.Would love to repeat again.
This was the last trip with Mama.
I do miss her .


Al-Fatihah for Mama & Papa


Sarah
October 8th 2015

Dengan Viva kami mengembara .

Assalamualaikum.

I'm back.Well,I did promise something but can't find the perfect picture for it.
In the mean time,I'll share what I have in mind first.
Last month ( 9th - 11th April 2015) , we went for our overseas trip. Grinning.
Oversea doesn't really mean you have to travel via aeroplane people.

Back to main purpose,with the budget of RM300 ( for three of us  - +Nazirah Lutfe  , +anis suhana  and my self +aimisarah abdullah ) we drove from
Alor Setar - Ulu Legong - Pengkalan Hulu - Betong - Kupang - Baling - Sungai Petani - Alor Setar.

Me,

Hari Pertama 9th April 2015

1800 - bertolak dari Alor Setar
2000- Sampai di Baling,Lepak Pasar Malam.Sungguh excited berada di Pasar Malam Baling sebab Bunga Kantan 3pcs bersamaan RM1.Gila ka apa xbeli oih? +anis suhana  beli la RM2.Then jumpa sejenis ulam,ala2 jering dan Petai.Aku perati lama jugak la pasai xpernah makan.Yes,saya memang anak jati Kedah,tapi kunjungan ke Daerah seperti Baling agak asing untuk keluarga saya.Tak pasti kenapa saya jarang di dedahkan dengan Daerah2 lain di negeri tercinta.
Ok,dekat Pasar Malam kena perli pasai kami tak beli sayuq dekat dia.Siap kata org KL xmakan sayuq.Eh,dah kenapa pakcik ni sentap.Malas layan.hahaha.
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2130 - Sampai Ulu Legong lepas buang masa dekat Pasar Malam.Check in Chalet Air Panas.Tunggu Kawan Ateh mai.Siap2 salin baju dan bersedia untuk Berendam!! Best jugak lah.Ada Ibu Kolam Air Panas,pergh,melecur tangan iols.

Makin lewat malam,makin ramai orang mai mandi.Ada yang Camping bayar RM5 untuk 1 tapak khemah.

Kami Dinner dekat Gerai2 tepi ni saja,sambil borak kosong masing2.Lepas makan terus sambung berendam sambil cari port menarik untuk lepak berjemaah.

0000- Mata tak larat bukak dah.Masing2 nak balik lena. +Nazirah Lutfe dah terlena di tepian kolam.
Aku layan movie sampai aku pun xpasti sapa yang tutup tv.

* Line celcom agak slow di Chalet Ulu Legong.Jadi untuk gadjet addict,harap bersabar.Kat sini lah anda nak bermesra dengan unggas-unggas yang ada.

Hari Kedua  10th April 2015

Keletihan berendam semalam,kami bangun ala2 princess.Gteww.
Ateh continue berendam, tapi aku and Nazirah pilih untuk berendam atas katil.Lebih nikmat kayaknya sambil nonton movie sama aircond yang sejuk bangat.hahaha


1000 - Kami bersiap2 untuk ke Luar Negara.Singgah breakfast di Gerai tepi challet sebelum proceed ke sempadan.Kawan Ateh teman sampai pintu Sempadan.Dekat ja,lebih kurang setengah jam.Sepanjang perjalanan aku asyik membebel,bahagianya kalau aku dapat cakap fluent in Thai.(masa aku tengah type blog ni,ada sekumpulan student dari Thai tgh discussion depan meja aku dekat Library.Depa berjemaah sambil bawa cerek ok.Aku tak pasti ada dapur ke tak dengan depa ni)

1200- Kami sampai Pintu Sempadan.Nervous jugak sebab ini kali pertama nak memandu di luar negara.Tak beli pun Insurance kereta,and Imigresen macam x tanya pun kenapa.
Cuma costing nak masuk agak expensive compare to other exit la.

• Paspot holder - Bayar RM2 untuk arrival card + upah menulis
• Border Pass Holder - Bayar RM2 terus dekat kaunter Imigresen Thai

* Jangan lupa senyum masa depa ambil gambar okay.Aku akan make sure gigi aku extra lebar masa ni.hiks

1230- Sawadikap,Welcome to Kingdom of Thailand!! Try nak selfie tapi masing2 macam malas ja.
Aku pun malas jugak.

1300- Mula memandu dan tercari2 ke arah mana nak pergi.Kami masuk Highway,which is free lah dekat sana.I wonder kenapa Highway depa free.Cuak jugak pasai sunyi ja jalan tu.Kami follow jalan ke Taman Bunga,cuma bila samapi T-Junction,we made this huge mistake ever,by taking the right lane instead of left.

Gaiss,listen here.

Left is not necessarily the wrong way.Sometimes,right do make mistakes.

And yeah,we are stucked in Pekan Betong.Pusing sana sini.Oklah,terror dah la jalan dalam Pekan Betong.Jumpa la The Biggest MailBox,Clock Tower,Taman Ayam,Makan LokChing.

1700- Check in +modernthai betong .I'm glad we made that decision.The best hotel ever.
Aku ada buat review pasal hotel ni dekat +TripAdvisor  and look for Sarah's review .

2000- Lepas berehat and kemas2,we all jalan cari dinner.Finally settle down dekat gerai dekat tempat weols lunch.We had Duck Pad Thai.Bagi aku memang sedap lah.Super pedas kot.& cheap as well. +Nazirah Lutfe makan sikit ja.Jetlagged kot.hahahah.Lepas melantak,weols jalan2,around pekan.Then patah balik hotel,drive ke Piyamit Tunnel coz kat situ lawa.Nak pi jauh2,macam malas lak.Then,jalan bawah barisan burung layang2.Aku hairan kenapa atas jalan tu banyak taik burung.Memang Xperasan barisan burung atas wayar elektrik yg berselirat tu.Cuak gak la,nanti habislah gaya hijabista I di penuhi taik burung.hiks.


Hari Ketiga  11th April 2015

0800- Check out awal coz program dengan NurHidayah mula 1030am macam tu.Beli breakfast dekat 7e ja.Pergh,coffee dia memang daebak lah.Kami beli yang cawan besaq sekali.Puas hati.Then pi snap pic dekat highway sebelum Border.Serious lawa view dia.Aku sampai panjat lah tembok tu,kekonon nak posing ala2 hijabista kan.

1000- around that time,singgah breakfast dekat border.Biasa ja kedai tu.Aku makan gitu2 ja.Then masuk balik Malaysia,kena

BAYAR LAGI RM2 PASAI NAK MASUK.

Eh,mahai pulak nak keluaq masuk kat pengkalan hulu ni kan.Tapi bayar ja lah,xkan aku nak balik kot Hatyai dan mai ke Baling kan?Sangat tak bijak di situ.
Bila sampai kat Baling,aku baca whats app yang gang2 from KL sampai lambat.Time tu agak ralat la x stay lama dekat Betong.So,we end up lepak ja dekat rumah Anak Yatim NurHidayah and borak with the girls.

Tujuan ke Baling adalah menjadi sukarelawan untuk projek Mini Library Khutub Khanah bawah ThewakafBuku.
Aku kan kaki panjang.hiks.
Aku google apa yang dekat dengan Baling.Aku nampak Betong,apa lagi.

Sesi berkenalan 

Ucapan penggulungan dari Pihak NurHidayah

Sesi memasang Mini Perpustakaan

Bukti aku pi buat kerja dekat sana.Gigih kan aku?

1800- Majlis selesai,ada la sesi bergambar,tapi aku xdak pulak pic tuh.Xpalah,hampa percaya kann?
Lepas selesai,aku pi rumah member dekat area tu jugak,Ziarah parents dia.Tapi perangai hudoh,kami pi lenggang apam ja.Mak dia punya la jamu macam2,siap bagi bekal asam keping ok.Malu rasa.Dah la pi jalan,balik tangan kosong ja.
Memang macam tu dah aku,Jarang pi jenjalan beli ole2.Sangat x ikut sunnah.Masalahnya,kewangan tipis.Tunjuk ga,baq dah cukup kan?

Oklah,takat tu ja aku larat nak share.Kalau rajin,check la +LinkedIn  aku ,ada la aku update dalam tu.
Sarah's LinkedIn

Networking kan.hiks.Kalau ada sapa2 nak ajak aku travel,ok ja.Tapi aku prefer Indo-China lagi la.
Till then...

Assalamualaikum


Sarah,
May 15th 2015

Alfatihah untuk Mama & Papa

Another day wasted in March 2015

Tbh, I forgot my late mama's birthday. I'm supposed to do content teaching on March 11th. It.It turn out lousy as well.
There goes my 15%.

Actually,I'm still thinking my blog plan.I thought of writing it about my latter.
Things I used to do and feel about.
I guess I'll just stick to it.
Looking back at the past made me realize how wonderful my life are.

YES,I am not okay.
I am having a lemon in my life now.
I try the most I could to turn it into Lemonade which I love the most.

I guess,that just it.
A sneak peak of next post would be about Roller Coster,My-neighbour and Three Musketeers?


Signing off for assignment now.

Al-Fatihah to Mama & Papa


Love,SarahMarch 25th 2015

[EF#8 – Weekly Challenge] Write a Letter to the Younger You

I stumble upon this blog by coincidence.After reading a post from Living Room   ,  I decided to give it a try .Details is HERE.

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Sunday,1st March 2015.

Dear Younger Sarah,

I hope you are in a very good health. I guess you are busy attending classes for your first year in University. How is it to actually wear whatever you want for classes? It must be awesome huh? And this is the 1st time that you are actually staying away from Family? Even though it is only 45 minutes driving from home town, it is still a new place for you and it will be your home for the next 3 years. I know how hard your emotion is to actually move on after losing Papa. But I guess you just have to and I know how strong you are with your strongest support system ever, Mama .All I want to say is, enjoy your life as it will be the best time of your life. I bet the love also beginning to blossom in your heart now. Just take it easy and don’t push yourself that much. Enjoy the moment you are doing now.as it won’t last longer.

Take your guts by exploring the beauty of the world. I know how you love watching that 707 of Travel & Living at ASTRO with Ian as your fav traveller. No worries, your times will come any soon. During that time, you will be shocked by how brave you are. And you will also be planning many trips for your backpack trips. You also will found that your passion is to actually see the world and not being stagnant at one place. You will always be planning and thinking where to next. Did I tell you that you are a bit stingy that you are willing to save as long as you can go for any trips you plan? Yes, you are. And be prepared to learn other language as well.

Apart from above, you enjoy reading blogs, but you are too afraid to start so. You have a lot of things to be told but you don’t have that turning point where you can actually start it. Start early, don’t PROCRASTINATE. That is your biggest weakness of all. Please, and please stay ahead and be brave for yourself.

Soon after you finish Diploma, you will enrol to the next higher level. This time it is completely different as you lost some of your good friends and started having new one. The friendship that you had last longer than your love life. You move to farthest town to the South and it is the place you dream off. But, it didn't last longer as you will soon grow hatred to that place as it took most of your time and you rarely enjoy your home town.

Upon graduating, you didn't return home yet as you started working and it where you backpack dreams come to reality. You spend most of your time browsing the internet searching for cheapest deal and the place that you want to conquer. SKY is your limit. You didn't even look back nor listen to others. You just follow your heart and enjoy the most of your time walking, meeting new people on the other side of the world. Even your support system approve with what your are doing.

However, death will pass by everyone .I hope you will be brave enough to face another tragic life in your life. I leave it for you to find out. But for some reason, please enjoy every moment you have with your family and make full use of it.

Lots of love.

The older me after years.

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what a relief.I finally managed to write to myself.I mean my younger me.

GOAT-time for 2015

Assalamualaikum and a very good morning.(sounds so serious huh?)


Hope it is not to late to say HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.Bear in mind I'm not from Chinese descendants ( maybe I do have but not sure from Mama or Papa )  but I do love their culture,food and etc. Always hoping to marry a Chinese guy. hihihihihih.

I'm back again.The last time I wrote was last year.And I skip the January post. I'm still having those post-loss. It happen once in a while.

Oh Well, I did a few trips early this year.Some of them are with picture some aren't.

Us - AS & NL

• Misi Kemanusian ke Kelantan under GIATMARA KEDAH January 5th until 7th 2015.We crossed Thailand to Kuala Krai.It was the best start for me in 2015. From Bukit Kayu Hitam(BKH)-Channa-Yala-Narathiwat-Pattani-Machang.All men of 20 with 4 single ladies.It was fun,awesome and I would say partly adventurous.Thanks +Nazirah Lutfe  for asking me to come along.(I didn't told her about this blog yet.Hope she's OK with me tagging her :P 

The lost :Area Dabong.Heartbreaking scene

Otw back to BKH,J stop somewhere near Yala Beach.I though he forgot,but he didnt.The best view ever

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• KL ; January 19th until 22nd 2015. The 1st trip to KL after 5month return home.NU Central completely open with various shops.Oh , I miss the Sam's Groceria. Ok,I missed the 21st of every month.Its the Gaji Time with previous company. Btw,head to KL because meeting a friend from Pekan Baru who is  - +Ann Nazief  .We walked a lot.Head to MidValley,NU Central the most,Gombak,Dinner at Humble Chef ( sedap and super cheap thanks +farliza Zaharudin  and FiQ). Overnite at Gombak ( +akmal aina Ali 's place ) and of course Subang Jaya (kekonon balik kg la subang jaya tu kan :P ) 

• Hatyai-Bangkok ; February 1st until 5th . Sawadekap / ka ... The most budget trip I've made so far and the most challenging.We took train the most in this journey.I'm gonna miss the view on each train.Local is very very helpful.Looking forward for next trip via Train to explore the Siamese soon. :)

1st Stop before heading to Capital of Thailand
Bangkok

3rd  Day :Local Train at Kheng Koi.1 journey cost us 50-80 Baht

• Perlis - Satun ; February 20th 2015. Amazing adhoc journey with Le  +anis suhana  and Le Suraya.We drive along the beach from Kuala Kedah to Kuala Perlis.And past by fish mongers selling ikan temenung setalam rm5!!!! Can you imagine it? If only we don't have to continue our journey,I will buy those fish.I mean it.And we made an adhoc turn by crossing the border without any legal documents.Surprised huh? So happen it is hols , and locals can passed by easily.I get for my kitchen a LARGE bottle of fish sauce,white pepper and of course Birdy ( its  a coffee lulz! ) I just loved looking at all the stuff sold there at the border of WangKelian.Love the view.

Lost while driving across Perlis. hihihihi

I guess that is the summary of my journey so far.

Will update details when I managed to collect all photos. :P

The journey that I love to do.

There are times I feels like just wanted to sit on my bed and enjoys my book and gardening.

As for now,I need to focus on my postgraduate.

And I really really have to ignore the bad Aura around me.

I wanted to think all the good stuff,the sweetest diabetic memory ever and also things I love the most.

It's been more than 100days for Mama and 11 years for Papa.

Extremely miss him &  her but life goes on.

Although I am not OK, I have to be OK for my life and the journey that I am going through.

Al-Fatihah to Mama & Papa

Love,

Sarah

February 25th 2015