Another day wasted in March 2015

Tbh, I forgot my late mama's birthday. I'm supposed to do content teaching on March 11th. It.It turn out lousy as well.
There goes my 15%.

Actually,I'm still thinking my blog plan.I thought of writing it about my latter.
Things I used to do and feel about.
I guess I'll just stick to it.
Looking back at the past made me realize how wonderful my life are.

YES,I am not okay.
I am having a lemon in my life now.
I try the most I could to turn it into Lemonade which I love the most.

I guess,that just it.
A sneak peak of next post would be about Roller Coster,My-neighbour and Three Musketeers?


Signing off for assignment now.

Al-Fatihah to Mama & Papa


Love,SarahMarch 25th 2015

[EF#8 – Weekly Challenge] Write a Letter to the Younger You

I stumble upon this blog by coincidence.After reading a post from Living Room   ,  I decided to give it a try .Details is HERE.

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Sunday,1st March 2015.

Dear Younger Sarah,

I hope you are in a very good health. I guess you are busy attending classes for your first year in University. How is it to actually wear whatever you want for classes? It must be awesome huh? And this is the 1st time that you are actually staying away from Family? Even though it is only 45 minutes driving from home town, it is still a new place for you and it will be your home for the next 3 years. I know how hard your emotion is to actually move on after losing Papa. But I guess you just have to and I know how strong you are with your strongest support system ever, Mama .All I want to say is, enjoy your life as it will be the best time of your life. I bet the love also beginning to blossom in your heart now. Just take it easy and don’t push yourself that much. Enjoy the moment you are doing now.as it won’t last longer.

Take your guts by exploring the beauty of the world. I know how you love watching that 707 of Travel & Living at ASTRO with Ian as your fav traveller. No worries, your times will come any soon. During that time, you will be shocked by how brave you are. And you will also be planning many trips for your backpack trips. You also will found that your passion is to actually see the world and not being stagnant at one place. You will always be planning and thinking where to next. Did I tell you that you are a bit stingy that you are willing to save as long as you can go for any trips you plan? Yes, you are. And be prepared to learn other language as well.

Apart from above, you enjoy reading blogs, but you are too afraid to start so. You have a lot of things to be told but you don’t have that turning point where you can actually start it. Start early, don’t PROCRASTINATE. That is your biggest weakness of all. Please, and please stay ahead and be brave for yourself.

Soon after you finish Diploma, you will enrol to the next higher level. This time it is completely different as you lost some of your good friends and started having new one. The friendship that you had last longer than your love life. You move to farthest town to the South and it is the place you dream off. But, it didn't last longer as you will soon grow hatred to that place as it took most of your time and you rarely enjoy your home town.

Upon graduating, you didn't return home yet as you started working and it where you backpack dreams come to reality. You spend most of your time browsing the internet searching for cheapest deal and the place that you want to conquer. SKY is your limit. You didn't even look back nor listen to others. You just follow your heart and enjoy the most of your time walking, meeting new people on the other side of the world. Even your support system approve with what your are doing.

However, death will pass by everyone .I hope you will be brave enough to face another tragic life in your life. I leave it for you to find out. But for some reason, please enjoy every moment you have with your family and make full use of it.

Lots of love.

The older me after years.

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what a relief.I finally managed to write to myself.I mean my younger me.

GOAT-time for 2015

Assalamualaikum and a very good morning.(sounds so serious huh?)


Hope it is not to late to say HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.Bear in mind I'm not from Chinese descendants ( maybe I do have but not sure from Mama or Papa )  but I do love their culture,food and etc. Always hoping to marry a Chinese guy. hihihihihih.

I'm back again.The last time I wrote was last year.And I skip the January post. I'm still having those post-loss. It happen once in a while.

Oh Well, I did a few trips early this year.Some of them are with picture some aren't.

Us - AS & NL

• Misi Kemanusian ke Kelantan under GIATMARA KEDAH January 5th until 7th 2015.We crossed Thailand to Kuala Krai.It was the best start for me in 2015. From Bukit Kayu Hitam(BKH)-Channa-Yala-Narathiwat-Pattani-Machang.All men of 20 with 4 single ladies.It was fun,awesome and I would say partly adventurous.Thanks +Nazirah Lutfe  for asking me to come along.(I didn't told her about this blog yet.Hope she's OK with me tagging her :P 

The lost :Area Dabong.Heartbreaking scene

Otw back to BKH,J stop somewhere near Yala Beach.I though he forgot,but he didnt.The best view ever

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• KL ; January 19th until 22nd 2015. The 1st trip to KL after 5month return home.NU Central completely open with various shops.Oh , I miss the Sam's Groceria. Ok,I missed the 21st of every month.Its the Gaji Time with previous company. Btw,head to KL because meeting a friend from Pekan Baru who is  - +Ann Nazief  .We walked a lot.Head to MidValley,NU Central the most,Gombak,Dinner at Humble Chef ( sedap and super cheap thanks +farliza Zaharudin  and FiQ). Overnite at Gombak ( +akmal aina Ali 's place ) and of course Subang Jaya (kekonon balik kg la subang jaya tu kan :P ) 

• Hatyai-Bangkok ; February 1st until 5th . Sawadekap / ka ... The most budget trip I've made so far and the most challenging.We took train the most in this journey.I'm gonna miss the view on each train.Local is very very helpful.Looking forward for next trip via Train to explore the Siamese soon. :)

1st Stop before heading to Capital of Thailand
Bangkok

3rd  Day :Local Train at Kheng Koi.1 journey cost us 50-80 Baht

• Perlis - Satun ; February 20th 2015. Amazing adhoc journey with Le  +anis suhana  and Le Suraya.We drive along the beach from Kuala Kedah to Kuala Perlis.And past by fish mongers selling ikan temenung setalam rm5!!!! Can you imagine it? If only we don't have to continue our journey,I will buy those fish.I mean it.And we made an adhoc turn by crossing the border without any legal documents.Surprised huh? So happen it is hols , and locals can passed by easily.I get for my kitchen a LARGE bottle of fish sauce,white pepper and of course Birdy ( its  a coffee lulz! ) I just loved looking at all the stuff sold there at the border of WangKelian.Love the view.

Lost while driving across Perlis. hihihihi

I guess that is the summary of my journey so far.

Will update details when I managed to collect all photos. :P

The journey that I love to do.

There are times I feels like just wanted to sit on my bed and enjoys my book and gardening.

As for now,I need to focus on my postgraduate.

And I really really have to ignore the bad Aura around me.

I wanted to think all the good stuff,the sweetest diabetic memory ever and also things I love the most.

It's been more than 100days for Mama and 11 years for Papa.

Extremely miss him &  her but life goes on.

Although I am not OK, I have to be OK for my life and the journey that I am going through.

Al-Fatihah to Mama & Papa

Love,

Sarah

February 25th 2015

Oh Alor Setar ku & AEON Big !!

December 5th 2014 .

AEON Big dah ada dekat LoqStaq.
Calling for all Kedahans.

What makes me happy?DAISO included too. *jumping up in the air,ok bergegar semenanjung*
Achik cracks a joke about me : Now I know if she suddenly went missing.It must be the Daiso.

Anyway,5th of us head to AEON Big around 630-ish pm.
Seriously,RELA needs to be in charge with the parking lot.
People keep coming as if it is open 24hour like Mustaffa in Singapore.
The best part is the BIG Sale.

Buy 1 Free 1 stuff.

Oh well,we just get the most basic stuff we need as the queue is quite long.
And our stomach are asking for food.
Sushi King aren't open yet until December 15th. :(

I didn't took any image as an evidence on sardine the mall is.
Well,you just imagine on how it is.
The parking is completely FREE.

More info and details check at :-  AeonBig_AlorSetar

My personal opinion is :

1) Customer , please do not take away the read basket provided by AeonBig.
It is solely for internal usage.Indeed they have install a metal that will create a loud noise when you try to take it out from AeonBig.And please don't bother to ask the staff if it is okay to bring it out to the carpark.
2)AEONBig Staff should know where the Surau located,this one is for the Muslim customer.*located on the 1st floor near MR.DIY.
3) Customer , please again and again check  if it is express,cash,or cash & card counter before lining up for payment.
But sometimes the cashier gets annoying too.I bought 10 items but all of them in bulky size,she though I am paying more than 10 items.
4)I always hope malls in Alor Setar have water bidet. Hi Hi Hi Hi.


On our way back home,I feels a bit emotional.
Last time,we have Mama around.
Oh My,missing her tremendously.
Al-Fatihah to both Papa&Mama.



Sarah
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December 6th 2014

Three Musketeers Dinner with the Chief

Salam.

As if I'm having  post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd , but I guess it is still under control. InsyaAllah,with Doa from everyone,I'll get through it very well.


Last February of 2014,we ( Mama,Achik,Ateh,Aleeyah,Qalesya & I)drove for an ad hoc outing to Kuala Perlis.It was the best for us.
The view along the way -> SUPERB!
We passed by a brace of duck farm.
Our journey seems like a fairytale plot.

Sunset along the way. سبحان الله

 Us while waiting for the food. We-fie with the musketeers and chief.

Oh,and also the kids.During this time,Mama obsessed with Green Tea,so I had one from home that day.It is typical for Mama to close her eyes while taking picture.I inherit that traits very well. :P 

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Full stomach with happy faces.Ahh, the great dinner indeed.Thanks Achik.

Thanks to my long hand, we-fie before heading home.Yeah, I know should edit it before publish.But I wish to remain it as original as it is.

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The beginning of new Life.

The remain.

The unexpected event finally occurred.
Exactly 10 years after Papa.
Just the time when I thought of settling down in Alor Setar.
That emptiness returns again.
This time,it's earlier than I thought it would be.

Officially , Doctor inform us on the 28th October 2014 @ 4 Muharam 1436 @ 1329 marks the end.
Big full-stop to her Dunya.

Sad.Angry.Frustration.
All sorts of feelings haunted me.

She's gone.Forever.
She's not coming back.
She's not answering back.

All the routine stops.

Jannah will reunite us again.InsyaAllah

Al-Fatihah to Mama.
1946-2014.