Mama : Setahun Masihi || Mama : After A Year

Exactly A year according to Gregorian Calender.She left us forever.

October 28th 2014

I still remember during my diploma study,I called her to say how worried I am with my Calculus exam and afraid that I end up getting C-.Next,all I know that she arrived in front of my hostel.The journey took her almost 45 minutes along with my Nanny cum my neighbour.I was speechless.A conversation turn to be an adhoc visit for me.

She tag along my niece,who is staying with her at that time.And also some food.When I recall back that incident,I was hoping that my nightmare hasn't begun yet.Well,to loose your parents is the worst things to happen.Regardless of what your age are.

Its been a year Mama,and next will be 12 years for Papa.Gosh,I didn't know that times flies that quick.

The Love of my Life

Dear Mama & Papa,

If you know the struggle I face,I bet you wouldn't dare to leave me.

Life is so different when you are still around.

Laughter is so real with you guys next to me.

Crying was something that I never used to do.

Sharing is the most I would do with you.

& Talking is the must whenever we met.

Now,

Bit by bits of my life scattered to pieces.

I am afraid of my own future.

I am stuck with my memory.

Memory that you left which hurts me a lot.

To walk away from that memory is impossible.

Soon,

I am counting days to see you again.

May Allah grant us a place to reunite together.

I am not asking for any sympathy.It just my life a bit upside down,and I can't  find the spirit to boost it out.

Sarah

October 28th 2015

Three Musketeers Dinner with the Chief

Salam.

As if I'm having  post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd , but I guess it is still under control. InsyaAllah,with Doa from everyone,I'll get through it very well.


Last February of 2014,we ( Mama,Achik,Ateh,Aleeyah,Qalesya & I)drove for an ad hoc outing to Kuala Perlis.It was the best for us.
The view along the way -> SUPERB!
We passed by a brace of duck farm.
Our journey seems like a fairytale plot.

Sunset along the way. سبحان الله

 Us while waiting for the food. We-fie with the musketeers and chief.

Oh,and also the kids.During this time,Mama obsessed with Green Tea,so I had one from home that day.It is typical for Mama to close her eyes while taking picture.I inherit that traits very well. :P 

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Full stomach with happy faces.Ahh, the great dinner indeed.Thanks Achik.

Thanks to my long hand, we-fie before heading home.Yeah, I know should edit it before publish.But I wish to remain it as original as it is.

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The beginning of new Life.

The remain.

The unexpected event finally occurred.
Exactly 10 years after Papa.
Just the time when I thought of settling down in Alor Setar.
That emptiness returns again.
This time,it's earlier than I thought it would be.

Officially , Doctor inform us on the 28th October 2014 @ 4 Muharam 1436 @ 1329 marks the end.
Big full-stop to her Dunya.

Sad.Angry.Frustration.
All sorts of feelings haunted me.

She's gone.Forever.
She's not coming back.
She's not answering back.

All the routine stops.

Jannah will reunite us again.InsyaAllah

Al-Fatihah to Mama.
1946-2014.